''YOU WILL REGRET THIS"

He nudged my spirit and changed my life totally.
I fell inlove with Jewel in my first year in the University. We met through a friend who accommodated me on my admission. He was a dark and handsome guy, I think his cheerful and jovial nature drew my heart to him. He was a Christian but I can't call him a born again.
He proposed relationship to me and being my only friend and the only person I had in my new school I accepted his hands of friendship and we started dating like a year after. Mind you, I didn't pray to know God's will. It was dating. Of course, he couldn't have proposed marriage at the time because we just started our journey in the University.
Our relationship was very interesting. So I thought. He was a very brilliant guy. He studied Law while I studied Political Science. We didn't joke with our studies at all, we played and studied together. We were always celebrating our success after each semester. It was fun and it appeared as if we were made to be together for life.
Within few Months of our relationship; we met our families and we sealed the relationship beyond the school environment.
I already gave my life to Christ and having established a relationship with Christ before going into the University, I made a commitment to God to keep my body till marriage and my boyfriend met me a virgin.
I told him my stand to Save Sex for Marriage, and he said there's no problem.
Somehow in the course of our relationship, one thing led to the other and we invented kissing. It was meant to be *only kissing*
Later we progressed to deep caressing, fingering, smooching each others privates until he introduced me to oral sex. But I had to stop the oral sex because I wasn't comfortable with it at all. It offends my spirit greatly and make me feel dirty, worthless and left me spiritually dry.
The assumed Little sin of *kissing and romance* continued for years until he started pressing me for sexual intercourse. After much talk and pleadings, he agreed to wait.
Along the journey of our relationship, we switched to talking marriage and having a life together. Our families gave their consent to our relationship and my greatest hope was to graduate and marry him.
I was always proud of us because all our friends were having sex. Many of them were aborting. We were the lesser evils.
Many times the sermon in church, programs and seminars would hit me hard and burn my heart. I cried for mercy and consecration. I would make a new commitment for Total sexual purity but on meeting my *boyfriend turned fiance* the romance would continue.
I can't forget when the Late Pastor Bimbo Odukoya came to my school, I made a fresh vow to total sexual purity.
I tried severally but I couldn't stop the foreplay/romances because it was the only thing we do to keep our relationship going on. On several occasions, he would even threatened to quit but with so much pleadings he would draw me into this arms again. Romance continued.
We dated for 7 years and no direct sex. I was feeling good thinking I was a virgin since we didn't have sexual intercourse.
I was a very committed Christian before I went to school but my fellowship was cold following my ungodly relationship. The relationship drained me spiritually. I started struggling with my walk with God. The communion was dry. The connection was broken. My prayer life became shallow. Bible Study turned a labour to me. The guilt ripped my heart apart whenever I tried to fellowship with the Holy Spirit.
I was torn between pleasing the Lord with my life and body slash keeping my relationship.
To make the matter worse I had to drag my boyfriend along to my spiritual pedestal...we were not spiritually compatibility. I was far into God than him. I would try to spiritualize our relationship by organizing prayers together, inviting him to my church and study Bible together yet God wasn't there.
My connection with the Holy Spirit was broken.
The self condemnation made me leave the Choir unit of my church. I was always feeling worthless. The power was gone, my melodious voice concealed my internal struggles.
Hmmm final year! the story changed in my final year in school. He started threatening me that he would quit if i refuse to have sex with him. I was confused and torn in between pleasing my boyfriend and God. All my friends were angry with me for holding on to my virginity for too long.
To cut the long story short, one day I became tired of keeping my virginity...I wanted to be a woman. I felt I had tried enough staying a virgin till my final year in school. I was 29.
I went to my boyfriend's house and I asked him to have sex with me. I told him that I was ready for sexual intercourse. He didn't take me serious at first, having disturbed me for years but by the time I hugged him he saw the light.
We were right on the bed doing our usual...romancing and kissing...
I have always known the AUDIBLE VOICE of the Holy Spirit since I was a teenager but I can't remember the last time I heard Him since my life took a new turn.
Suddenly I heard the Holy Spirit said to my ears YOU WILL REGRET THIS"
His voice was tender and very sorrowful but tensed enough to sound a warning to me. The effect of His Word was strong on my body.
I jumped out of the bed immediately. My fiance was shocked and disappointed. More like I was shivering. I was discomfited. I made my way to the door. He was angry. I politely explained to him exactly what the Lord said to my spirit.
I kept repeating the Word I heard in my spirit "YOU WILL REGRET THIS"
He spoke to me in my ears. I heard Him.
It was like I was going crazy.
This experience happened in December 2008.
I can't thank God enough for the Holy Spirit who called me out of my 5 minutes madness,
The devil already knew a major encounter was on my way on February 27/28th 2009.
Barely 2 Months after this escape from the altar of fornication I was in a church program when the Holy Spirit encountered my life afresh; I was baptized in the Holy ghost and given the gift of prophecy.
What a beautiful date 27th February 2009.
What a joy that flooded my heart following this encounter. It was so beautiful! My fire was re-ignited, my love and zeal for Christ was refreshed. I was restored! The broken link was mended!
I called my fiance and narrated my encounter with him. In short I told him that I couldn't continue the ungodly relationship or better still we should continue the relationship without romancing and kissing.
He was sweating.
The short form of the story was that he quit. I wept at the years I wasted patching up the relationship that drained my soul.
Letting go of that relationship was like sacrificing my Isaac. It pained me. I cried and wouldn't listen as my family tried consoling me.
I couldn't trade my relationship with Christ for anything.
This marked the beginning of my making. Within 4years, I went through some cutting, breaking, bending, prunning and grooming.
Till 2013 when I started this ministry.
I shared this same story in 2012 and 2013 when I started my ministry. But the Lord asked me to share this with you TODAY.
The Holy Spirit is saying to me in my prayers that God is set to raise SANCTIFIED VESSELS.
YOU ARE ONE OF THEM.
The one who practices sin is of the devil; for the devil has sinned from the beginning. The Son of God appeared for this purpose, to destroy the works of the devil.
No one who is born of God practices sin, because His seed abides in him; and he cannot sin, because he is born of God. 1 John 3:8-9
The knowledge of this Scripture is powerful.
1. The one who sin is of the devil
2. The one who is of God does not sin
If you are of God you will not sin. How?
The ''seed'' of God is in you.
The seed of God is the HOLY SPIRIT. The Holy Spirit will speak THE WORD to you, warn you and guide you per time. If you keep obeying His voice YOU WILL NOT SIN.
How is your love for Christ?
How is your spiritual life now?
Can you evaluate your love relationship as being holy or ungodly?
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